Things to say

I can't take it anymore!!! I have to let it out!!! Phew! (Taking a deeeeeeep breath)
Ok... 2more to go.. What's that? What? 2more to go? What am I talking about? I mean 2 more days to go oh no 2 more subjects then I'm FREE!!!!

1st of December.. Hmm.. What a nice day uh?
I'm counting down to the end of SPM Examinations. Honestly, I can't believe that I'm actually sitting for the major examinations now. Although you might think I'm relaxing now and I'm not worry about my exams but I am! I am actually studying. For your information, I don't like to study in public as in studying when lotsa people around me. It's very irritating and annoying.

I don't like people asking me 'Hey, how's your exam?, How's your preparation? Study now, or else you'll regret' I'm bored of hearing those sentences. Sorry.. No offence. I'm just letting out my thoughts.

I'm glad that people around me are caring and loving. I received tonnes of messages from friends, family members and even strangers. Opps.. Not to say strangers but people who I've never talked to before. It shows that they are people that I don't know who cares for me. I appreciate that very very much and I would love to say Thank You! Friends are praying for me and that touched me most.

I'm not supposed to online or go near the computer but I just can't resist. Don't tell my MOM. Shh... Top secret between me and you k? (If you're reading this...)

I feel bad. Sigh. I shall go and study for my Physics. Ciao...

To be continue...

Friday

Everyone seems to be busy with their own things. So do I but being greeted by a 'lecturer' early in the morning isn't a good thing. So, I went and walked around my house. Nothing seems to look alive. All I can see is just black, white and grey... Am I awake or asleep? Let me check! I'm awake! I realized that the pyjamas that I wore last night was inside out. Haha.. I don't care.. Who cares? Unless someone stalks you while you're sleeping. Oops! I'm not a superstar so no paparazzi will follow me. Phew!

It's Friday, I'm not in the mood to study.. Oh no!!! SPM is just around the corner, waiting for me.. Although I'm worry about the horrible examinations but yet I'm still not moving. Why??? It must be the lazy worm in my mind keep exercising. I shall dig it out immediately.

Nothing special today. It's just Friday. Same noise pollution. Same people I see. Same event that I attend. Same venue that I'm located at. Sigh. What a boring life. Come on! Be more alive!! Some people can just go wherever they wanna be. Why can't I do it? Is it something bothering me? Is there something pulling me back? The answer is YES! Oh gosh! My life is like the beautiful bird being locked in the square cage. When can I stretch out my wings and fly???

I tell myself, SOON! I shall be patient. The more patient you are, the best you will get.

I put my trust in you GOD!

Spill it out!!!

To be in the designing line, that's what I'm always dreaming of..

Eventually, there is a disagreement due to I'm the only child and I've to obey what my mom has wanted me to do. I don't have to follow whatever she says all the time. But according to the bible, the children must obey their parents. In this situation, I shall sit down and talk to her one-to-one in order for me to achieve my dream.

To be able to fly around the world, is another dream of mine..

If you were to ask me again, 'Would you like to be an air-stewardess?' my answer will be 'Absolutely YES!' but mom always psycho me about the negative things of being an air-stewardess. They are materialistic, they want luxurious stuffs, they want everything to be the best of the best. That is quite true but being an air-stewardess doesn't mean I will forget who I am and where I came from. There are benefits being an air-stewardess.

To be someone I want to be in future is in God's hands..

I can't slip out the chance. Not even once. Everyone is talking about being wealthy, successful, popular and etc. Somehow, they just forgotten the root of being wealthy, successful and popular. The roots of being what you want to be is depends on God. HE is the one who show us the light and right path. HE is the one who gives the best of the best for our own good. We shouldn't neglect the ONE who loves us and sacrifice HIS life for us. Therefore, To Be Someone I Want To Be In Future is depends on GOD..

To be myself, I must not lie to myself and to God..

I can't hide myself from God. If not, God will also hide himself from me.. I don't want it to happen in my life because I've experienced once. It was suffering, bitter and sour... I was looking for the light but still was blinded by the darkness. I hid myself from from everyone, including God until there are the incidents happened and it strikes me. I became strong, I felt the presence of God. God wants me to face the truth. Repent is the only key to stand up and be the princess of our God again. HE helps me every second.. Every second means a lot to me.