I've been a failure this year. I failed to meet my achievement. I failed because I disappoint my baby. I failed to make peace. I failed to keep my promise. I failed and I failed..
I've been wandering in this world blindly. Time passes seconds by seconds and I'm still miserable. My life is not organized anymore. Am I still an accountable person?
I've been crying a lot last year. Tears flooded my pillow and it even wet my bed. It flows like a waterfall, non-stop flowing.. It's like it will never end. Somehow, tears make me feel better.
I've been wanting to do a lot of things all these while but how many have I achieved? I have to be more focus and determine on what I really want in my life. My life is uncertain now.
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I've been through a lot of ups and downs in my journey. What I'm not supposed to see, I've seen it. What I'm not supposed to hear, I've heard it. What I'm not supposed to do, I've done it.
I've evaluated myself. I've changed to a bitchy little devil and I need to transform back to my bubbly and jovial sweet girl. I need time. I need motivation. I need people to support.
I know I'm not alone. I know I can do all things with the help of my love ones. I know I can.. I'm a selfish girl at times. Don't blame me for that because it's life. We've to struggle for it.
I want people to look up to me again. I want to mix around with people who have the same interest with me. I want my baby to accompany me all time. I want happiness.
**A smile a day changes a person's life **
I love Blogging
Just entered Kotex Fresh Face Search 2011 Contest yesterday
I want to own this place
My life is a havoc. Opps.. I mean was.. Yea. It's a past tense. Which already over. Ever since I'm rebelled and done all the things beyond my own imagination, my life changed. Totally changed. It's 360 degree changed. I can't believe I've the courage to make those decisions. And now, I'm enjoying the outcome. I smell FREEDOM now. At least I get to smell it. My senses are telling me, this is going to be a nice journey. This is just a beginning of my own life. It's only an introduction. Well, not to say much, Chapter 1 is definitely about me and my boyfriend, Sam. The rest of the Chapters are comimg up soon. I just can't wait. But I guess, it won't be a fairy tale because we're all living in a reality world. A world which is full of corruption. A world which is flooded by cunning and unreasonable human. I'm not saying I'm an angel but trying be an angeliked girl. And of course, we've to be smart when facing difficulties. That's when we show our evilish tail while our halo is still on our head. Hahahaa... That's somewhat an oxymoron. Anyway, I do not want to talk much in this post as I've other topics to post.
It's officially year 2011 in Chinese's Calendar. I don't feel well. I guess I've taken too much of high cholesterol food. I dare not eat too much of food which contains of high carbohydrates or packet drinks which contain of a lot of sugar. Sigh. What a Chinese New Year this year. Not only that, I'm having diarrhea. It's so suffering. My tummy don't feel well. Feel like going to the toilet but feel hungry at the same time. What is this? Is this how I'm celebrating New Year? I better be recovered by today because me and my whole family will be heading to A Famosa, Melaka tomorrow. We'll be staying there for 2 days and 1 night. According to my aunt, she has booked a bungalow with a private swimming pool. I hope me and my family get to enjoy and have a better relationship with one another. This will be a time for us to bond together and get to know each other better. Treasure our love ones in our lives or we might regret one day.