Turn away from what we've done wrong, look up and SMILE

I've been a failure this year. I failed to meet my achievement. I failed because I disappoint my baby. I failed to make peace. I failed to keep my promise. I failed and I failed..

I've been wandering in this world blindly. Time passes seconds by seconds and I'm still miserable. My life is not organized anymore. Am I still an accountable person?

I've been crying a lot last year. Tears flooded my pillow and it even wet my bed. It flows like a waterfall, non-stop flowing.. It's like it will never end. Somehow, tears make me feel better.

I've been wanting to do a lot of things all these while but how many have I achieved? I have to be more focus and determine on what I really want in my life. My life is uncertain now.

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I've been through a lot of ups and downs in my journey. What I'm not supposed to see, I've seen it. What I'm not supposed to hear, I've heard it. What I'm not supposed to do, I've done it.

I've evaluated myself. I've changed to a bitchy little devil and I need to transform back to my bubbly and jovial sweet girl. I need time. I need motivation. I need people to support.

I know I'm not alone. I know I can do all things with the help of my love ones. I know I can.. I'm a selfish girl at times. Don't blame me for that because it's life. We've to struggle for it.

I want people to look up to me again. I want to mix around with people who have the same interest with me. I want my baby to accompany me all time. I want happiness.

**A smile a day changes a person's life **