Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Kotex Fresh Face Search 2011 Contest

Just entered Kotex Fresh Face Search 2011 Contest yesterday
A male make up artist changed my bored look into a brighter look
A specky female photographer was standing on a chair while taking for photo
She says she's too short to take a nice angle of me and that's why I bended down
Currently at Top 12 now..

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Silence is Golden


I'm sorry for being fussy
I'm sorry for being stingy
I'm sorry for my selfishness
I'm sorry for what I've done wrong

I apologize for my clumsiness
I apologize for making you angry
I apologise for disappointing you
I apologise for making you pissed

I admit I nag too much at times
I admit I did not think wisely
I admit I did not keep my promise
I admit I'm like a baby

I can't help myself
I want to change
I've been thinking a lot
I'm possessed with negative thoughts

Pull me off the hell
Lead me to the light
Show me your hand
Rescue me, someone

My heart is bleeding
Keep bleeding love
I'm willing to change for my love one
I'm willing to do all things as long as we're together


Turn away from what we've done wrong, look up and SMILE


I've been a failure this year. I failed to meet my achievement. I failed because I disappoint my baby. I failed to make peace. I failed to keep my promise. I failed and I failed..

I've been wandering in this world blindly. Time passes seconds by seconds and I'm still miserable. My life is not organized anymore. Am I still an accountable person?

I've been crying a lot last year. Tears flooded my pillow and it even wet my bed. It flows like a waterfall, non-stop flowing.. It's like it will never end. Somehow, tears make me feel better.

I've been wanting to do a lot of things all these while but how many have I achieved? I have to be more focus and determine on what I really want in my life. My life is uncertain now.
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I've been through a lot of ups and downs in my journey. What I'm not supposed to see, I've seen it. What I'm not supposed to hear, I've heard it. What I'm not supposed to do, I've done it.

I've evaluated myself. I've changed to a bitchy little devil and I need to transform back to my bubbly and jovial sweet girl. I need time. I need motivation. I need people to support.

I know I'm not alone. I know I can do all things with the help of my love ones. I know I can.. I'm a selfish girl at times. Don't blame me for that because it's life. We've to struggle for it.

I want people to look up to me again. I want to mix around with people who have the same interest with me. I want my baby to accompany me all time. I want happiness.


**A smile a day changes a person's life **

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Shopping list? Doens't seem like it

Recently I bought:
1. A Valentino Creation Leather wallet for my baby Sam
2. A pair of contact lens for me and my baby Sam
3. A huge pink Happy Birthday specs for mom's birthday
4. An own necklace
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Planning to buy:
1. A shopping handbag
2. A dinner high heels
3. A casual dress
4. A short pants

Home-Sweet-Home

I want to own this place
A lovely place
With my beloved ones
I want to spend the rest of my life here
An ocean is what I would like to dive in every morning
A peaceful place with fresh air is what I always wanted

Let the light shines

My life is a havoc. Opps.. I mean was.. Yea. It's a past tense. Which already over. Ever since I'm rebelled and done all the things beyond my own imagination, my life changed. Totally changed. It's 360 degree changed. I can't believe I've the courage to make those decisions. And now, I'm enjoying the outcome. I smell FREEDOM now. At least I get to smell it. My senses are telling me, this is going to be a nice journey. This is just a beginning of my own life. It's only an introduction. Well, not to say much, Chapter 1 is definitely about me and my boyfriend, Sam. The rest of the Chapters are comimg up soon. I just can't wait. But I guess, it won't be a fairy tale because we're all living in a reality world. A world which is full of corruption. A world which is flooded by cunning and unreasonable human. I'm not saying I'm an angel but trying be an angeliked girl. And of course, we've to be smart when facing difficulties. That's when we show our evilish tail while our halo is still on our head. Hahahaa... That's somewhat an oxymoron. Anyway, I do not want to talk much in this post as I've other topics to post.

~The End~

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

First Day of Chinese New Year 2011

It's officially year 2011 in Chinese's Calendar. I don't feel well. I guess I've taken too much of high cholesterol food. I dare not eat too much of food which contains of high carbohydrates or packet drinks which contain of a lot of sugar. Sigh. What a Chinese New Year this year. Not only that, I'm having diarrhea. It's so suffering. My tummy don't feel well. Feel like going to the toilet but feel hungry at the same time. What is this? Is this how I'm celebrating New Year? I better be recovered by today because me and my whole family will be heading to A Famosa, Melaka tomorrow. We'll be staying there for 2 days and 1 night. According to my aunt, she has booked a bungalow with a private swimming pool. I hope me and my family get to enjoy and have a better relationship with one another. This will be a time for us to bond together and get to know each other better. Treasure our love ones in our lives or we might regret one day.

I miss my baby who's in Sabah now. I don't know what he's doing. I feel like texting him but inside me, I want him to enjoy his New Year with his family and friends as well. It is the most beautiful thing to listen to my baby's voice. No matter it's over the phone or on skype, but of course talking to him face to face is the best! His voice is so soothing. It makes me calm all the time when I'm panic and that makes me feel secure. Oh dear.. I miss my baby very much.

p/s: I love you baby... Muakx!

Friday, January 14, 2011

writing here can be fun

hi sweetie, although now everything is quite settled, but we still got to wait for the challenge to reach us.. 15 more days im leaving to kk.. which is on 1st of feb, gonna miss u alot. but quite sad that u are working because now we only have 3 days to meet up, but well what to do...hehe... i still love u sweetie... maybe i will working in starbuck bukit bintang because i have a friend which is a supervisor works there.. see whether he can help or not..lol...im happy for all these time tat u are obsessed with me, kinda cute..haha..well it shows that u care me the most and the max...haha...well then sick sick sick still writing a blog to u..ahaha.. remember one thing be strong, learn to improvise, adapt and overcome no matter where you are ok!? i love you sweetie, do update ur blog it has been sometime we neglected blogger..hahaha

From: Sam

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Singapore Post

Yet! Another tiring day! Everyday seems to be so busy. Shop Shop Shop!!! Walk Walk Walk!!! Eat Eat Eat!!! The same routine everyday. Bought a sky blue shorts for myself and a tshirt for my baby at Cotton On. All together I've bought 1 pair of sneakers, 1 pair of rugget flowery shoes, a sexy mini dress, a sky blue shorts and a tshirt. I'm still shopping for a squarish yet round shopping bag or a normal cowboy sling bag. I've seen a lot of shops selling this tshirt, it's short in the front but long behind. It's quite fashionable and I feel like owning one of it but I'm scared that I'll shop till I have not enough money for the rest of the 4 days to come. Hahaha.. Anyways, those are the items that I bought it for myself after so long of taking a vacation for NOT shopping. Now I know why women love to shop. Finally! I feel the feeling of shopping myself without mom beside me, grumbles or nags. I smell freedom. LOL. There's a lot of things I want to grab it and pay money but still I have to calculate how much I left. Although Dai Yee told me if I want anything, I can just tell her and she'll settle the bill for me but I don't feel good for others to pay for me.

After staying in Singapore for 2 days, I fell in love with Singapore. The people, the fashion, the food, the accommodation, the service, the transportation, the hygiene, and the shopping malls. Singaporeans are really fashionable! Evening dress with a belt, slippers and a nice handbag! WOW! I'm impressed. They really know what is the definition of FASHION! Some dress like a model! Baggy four quarter brown pants with a semi-transparent beige blouse and a pair of heels and of course the latest fashion handbag. How can they be so yummy? Not only that, their hair style matches their dressing. My eyes were wide-opened when I was shopping. Every single one of them dresses their best to show off what they know about FASHION! I wish I can own one of their wardrobe. Haha.. Just one will do. I don't ask for more. Even the guys know how to show their best but some dress like gay lou. hahaha.. As usual, three quarter shorts with a tight shirt and a pair of sneakers. Well, that's common. Ladies have more choice! Kekeke.. It's good and bad too. Good because we have options. Bad because we gotta spend more money and energy.

Wow! Third paragraph. I wish and hope to message you today and tomorrow and everyday but I can't. Each message costs RM1 and if my baby replies, it costs another RM1. Add it up is RM2. So NOT worth it! It's killing me!!! I miss my baby very much! How I wish my baby is here with me everyday, every hour, every minute and every second or even millisecond. Looking at so many couples in Singapore holding hands, shopping together, have lunch, dinner and breakfast together really make me JEALOUS! I want to be part of it too with my beloved Sam. I can't wait to go back to Malaysia. I can't wait for school reopen. I can't wait til 3rd January 2010. I can't wait to meet my baby too. I miss you baby.. I do not know how to contact you but through the air, I whisper "I LOVE YOU". Hope you receive my message baby..

I'll be going to Jurong Bird Park tomorrow morning at 10am. Will be having breakfast in the morning at home. We've just shopped for our breakfast. keke.. Mom and Pastor John will be arriving around 2pm. We might meet up mom at Orchard Road. Will be going to Universal Studio with Alvin and the family on the 28th Dec 2010. We're going to spend the whole day over there. I guess that is it from me.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

A day before I leave Malaysia

Down the hill is how Im feeling now
Climbing up a ninty degree slope is what I'm struggling
Going down the hill is always easier
We will never know the outcome of it

Trouble is a friend of mine
It sticks around me even I tried to escape
Peace is never a friend of mine
I glue to it even it repels like a magnet to me