we want PEACE!!!!

I'm feeling tired.. Mentally but not physically. =(

I slept from 10.30pm to 5.00am this morning.. 6 and a half hours is enough to regenerate my energy i guess.. I can sleep 3-4 hours a day without feeling tired but something happened last night and it didn't bring peace when I was sleeping.

Grandma was complaining about my 'kakak' to my eldest aunt. Complaining about my 'kakak' scolded her when my grandma was asking her to do something. *I don't know who's telling the truth*

Grandma speaks very LOUD, since young. That's the way she speaks, she couldn't help. My aunt was feeding Queenie and Queenie doesn't like to eat cause she doesn't know how to swallow and that frustrates my aunt. My grandma kept complain, complain and complain.. She wants my aunt to scold the maid in front of her so that the maid will apologize for what she's done.

I don't know what was happening actually. I was doing my assignments and homework. I heard noises in the living room so I switched off the computer and went out from the study room to check what's happening and I was my aunt was crying, banging on the table when Queenie was busy chewing her food while painting. My grandma didn't stop complaining.

My aunt wanted to reason with her but my grandma is very very stubborn. She doesn't wanna listen to any of the advise or what-so-ever... This isn't the first time they argue over a small little thing which about the maid. Isn't it maid supposed to help us up on cleaning the house and doing the chores? I don't understand how it ended up with arguments...

They were scolding, yelling, shouting and all the foul languages came out and the kids were sitting on the sofa watching both of them "f*cking" at each other. (sorry for typing it out) So I pulled the 2boys and carried Queenie to the study room. 3 of them were shocked. "Why is popo scolding mummy and why mummy is crying?" asked Queenie. I explained it to them in the simplest way.

Grandma was too angry and she couldn't breathe. She lied on the floor. My aunt was still scolding. "Popo die already ar, biu jie?"asked Queenie after looking at grandma lying on the floor. I carried her away and told her that popo is too tired of scolding mummy, that's why she needs to rest on the floor immediately.

My aunt was crying while reasoning about what she has contributed to the family. Sigh. *Long story*

I don't think i'll type everything cause i gotta go home dy.

*sign out*

Gross

Popo boiled 'lin yung sai gok' today. When I was drinking,

I felt something in my mouth. I thought it's the seed or anything

but when I stuck out my tongue, I noticed it's an insect.

I was biting it.. Yucks!!!

*vomit*

Friday

Class ended early again. Again? No way!!! But yea.. early again.. My lecturer for Films & Arts Appreciation is a 'guai lou' a.k.a Mat Salleh, Mr. Jeff Rahim. Sounds like a Malay name eh? He's quite cute. He went in to the Auditorium Hall with a cowboy hat. I was like.. cooool.. I like this lecturer. His teaching is clear but the topic is boring~~ Most of the students were asleep. I almost fell asleep too but as a good girl, I respect my lecturer. I will keep myself awake by disturbing my friends but it was too quiet so I have to lower down my voice.

Why do we need to study subjects which are not related to the course we applied? Why can't we just take the shortcut? Isn't it easier for everyone? Why do we need to be so troublesome? Why do they need to hire so many lecturers? I don't really like my Economics lecturer. She's young and inexperience. Well, I don't blame her on being as soft as cotton but c'mon la.. as a lecturer, can't you just be firm and determine on what you're teaching? Yes is a yes and No is always a no.

R-O-J-A-K

I can't believe I'm actually staying back to revise my Algebra & Trigonometry. It doesn't sound like me, i know.. I stay back because I wanted to fulfill my 65working credit hours but since my supervisor, Miss Maz is on leave so the only thing I can do now is online, sign in to my UCSI account and do revision on my Algebra & Trigonometry. Sitting next to a spoilt computer is dangerous cause I can feel the heat from here. *hot* Will it explode? hmm.. Praying that it doesn't explode then, or else I'll meet everyone in heaven one day.

I hate to say this. My mom is acting childish these few days. I don't know what's wrong with her. I can't help but just to watch and listen to her naggings. I have to bear with her every time she's in bad mood, I have to be patient when she's... well.. I hate to talk bad about people, especially friends and family. I shall stop blogging about this.

It seems like everyone is on Facebook here. Some are playing Pet Society, some are chatting, some are screening at people's photo, some are watching movie, some are playing games, some are reading emails, some are posting comments, some are reading people's status and accidentally blasted out a laugh, some are talking from one end to another end, some are doing assignments, some are doing research, and etc. Everyone is doing their own thing. What am I doing here? I'm blogging, I'm doing Algebra & Trigonometry, I'm Facebooking, I'm checking mails and last but not least, I'm thinking of my lover.

Blogging is a way to express your thoughts. Blogging is a way to send out our message and giving opinions to the world through the Internet. Blogging is also a diary to some of us. Blogging is now the latest trend to have online business, which I wish to have one, one day. I always wish to have my own business, earning lotsa money $Ka-Ching$ but that doesn't mean I'm money minded. I always feel sad to see beggars straying around the city or the old folks asking for money in the coffee shop. It's a sad thing to even mention about it. I respect people who are older than me. I love them. I feel like I have the responsibility to look after them cause they're old, they're weaker than us {youths}, they're more experienced where they can always advice us and many other reasons.

My dad is the only one who's looking after my grandma. It's a very sad story to tell here but I feel like blogging it today. My grandma is over 70/80 years old but she's still strong although she's old. She was a Chinese teacher and her husband was a school principal. That was 50 to 60 years ago. They came from China if I'm not mistaken. During the World War II, my grandparents landed in Hong Kong, that's where my second aunt was born. My dad has a brother which is now in Australia, 3 sisters (1st one in some where some where in Malaysia, second one in Australia and the youngest one in Subang) and my dad is the youngest. Many things happened in my dad's family. My second aunt doesn't want to visit my grandma cause she thinks my grandma dump her in Hong Kong and left her alone but it wasn't like this. As I've mentioned just now, my grandparents gave birth to my second aunt and she was left alone in Hong Kong since young. They lost touch and that's how misunderstanding occurs.

Those were the days.. I'm glad both my grandparents are still alive except or my grandfather (dad's side). Hmm.. Why am I talking about old people now? Hmm... I think I better study.

+Sign out+
p/s: Not many UCSI-ians wearing Red and White today.. They're just not sporting at all..

UCSI Got Talent

I'm still thinking

whether I should join

UCSI

Got Talent 2010

It's on 18th of May

Next Tuesday

Starts at

7.20pm

This is like so last minute

I don't know whether

I should sing

or dance

If I'm going to sing

what song should I sing?

If I'm going to dance

what dance should I perform?

UCSI is a school of music

There are a lot of talented students

How can I compete with them

Anyway, I join for fun

Honestly, I have pride

If I lost, I'll be disappointed

If I win, of course I'll be happy

Rejoice!!!

Think about it

This is my first year

Not even a first year

First month?

Why am I so up to this kinda event?

What does it have to do with me?

Should I join?

Should I not?

Friends encourage me to join

They're curious about

how well I can sing

Well, I'm just above average

Different people

Different opinion

Different expectation

Different feedback

Once again

Should I join

Should I not

Pray about it first

Daily Bread

"Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life,

to mind your own business and to work with your hands,

just as we told you,

so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders

and so that you will not be dependent on

anybody."

(1 Thessalonians 4:11-12)

Lead a well-rested life (not a silent one). Pay more attention to how we're living now than how everyone else is living. Get a job and do good work so that we can be a giver and not a taker. Doing the opposite may lead people to think following Jesus leaves us exhausted, judgmental, lazy, foolish, and broke.

What's my plan for my life? Will it help me to lead a restful, wise, and working life that will be respectable to those who don't know Jesus?

We cannot truly face life until we face the fact that it will be taken away from us.

The prospective son-in-law was asked by his girlfriend's father, 'Son, are you able to support a family?' 'Well, no, sir,' he replied. 'I was just planning to support your daughter. The rest of you will have to fend for yourselves.'

Alejandro - Lady Gaga

I know that we are young,

And I know that you may love me,

But I just can't be with you like this anymore,

Alejandro

She's got both hands

In her pocket

And she wont look at you

Won't look you at

She hides through love

En su bolsillo

She got a halo around her finger

Around you

You know that I love you boy

Hot like Mexico, rejoice

At this point I gotta choose

Nothing to loose

Don't call my name

Don't call my name, Alejandro

I'm not your babe

I'm not your babe, Fernando

Don't wanna kiss, don't wanna touch

Just smoke one cigarette and run

Don't call my name

Don't call my name, Roberto

Alejandro

Alejandro

Ale-ale-jandro

Ale-ale-jandro

Just stop

Please, Just let me go Alejandro,

Just let me go

She's not broken

She's just a baby

But her boyfriend's like a dad, just like a dad

Draw those flames that burn before him

Now he's gonna find a fight, gonna fool the bad

You know that I love you boy

Hot like Mexico, rejoice

At this point I gotta choose

Nothing loose

A speech on Mother's Day

There's this young woman who gave birth to a child 18 years ago. The child has grown up and that's me. The young woman who gave birth to me 18 years ago is my beloved mom, Sylvia Chai.

Over the 18 years, she scolded me a lot but that shows that she loves me a lot. She even nags me everyday, saying: "Girl, go shower now. Girl, go study now. Girl, stop playing computer games. Girl, stop playing with your phone. Girl, go eat now and etc." Nagging isn't a bad thing, it is a reminder for the children that mom is always watching over us. Sometimes I wonder, " don't you feel tired or bored of nagging? But mom, don't stop nagging, it shows that you care for me."

Mom is always the one who sends me everywhere. You drove me to kindergarten when I was young, you drove me to primary school, you drove me to secondary school and you're still driving, driving me to college but soon it will be my turn to drive you everywhere when I get my license. Of course by using your mini car. Thank you mommy for sacrificing your own time to drive me wherever I want to go.

Thank you mom for being my friend too. We share our laughter all the time. You've given me a lot of counsel whevener I've any difficulties, you're the first to be there for me, to comfort me when I'm down, to find solutions when I've problems and also to teach and guide me throughout the years. I treasure every moment we spend together.

Mom always worries about me. Worry that I don't sleep well, eat well, going out with the wrong company and don't do well in exams. I know I disappoint you at times but you did not give up on me. You will still encourage me and motivate me as well. Without all your support, I won't be who I am today. I'm proud to have you as my mom. I thank God for giving me a lovely mom. Bringing up a child as a single mom is not easy. I appreciate you mom.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers...

I love you mi...

R-a-n-d-o-m

Class canceled!!! I should be happy but not when I'm excited attending my first class. Hmph! I've nothing to do now. Blogging will be a way to waste, oh wait, "spend" my time. I'm blank now. Totally blank. I have no idea what I'm typing. I'm thinking what should I say or present for this coming Mother's Day. I'm nervous.. I'm not afraid to sing in front of hundreds people but giving a speech in Main Service? hohohoo... *nightmare*

Lets not talk about that.. It makes me nervous.

Hmm.. I've finally get my new bible from auntie Denise and auntie Ying Ying.. Loving loving it.. It's a leather handcarry bible. Muakx! haha..

+First week of college+
I thought I'll be the talkative one but it seems like I'm not the only one who's talking all the time. They're many girls who are much more talkative. The only reason I can't clique along with them is because they're speaking in Chinese. I'm not trying to say I don't speak Chinese but the way I speak in Chinese is funnny. I don't remember how I managed to survive in primary school.

Michelle Lee Fui Jinn is my closest friend in UCSI currently. She's a pure banana... nanana.. She's independant and that's why we both always go seperate ways. Sometimes I just don't understand why I can get along with bananas better than those who speak in Chinese. Isn't it unfair? I speak Chinese too.. and I'm a Chinese. I understand every single words you people say but not all the time.

It seems like everyone has their own group. The Diploma students will always stick with each other and laugh out loud. Those who stay in the hostel (girls) will glue to one another and talk about shifting out cause the cost of living in UCSI is too high. The 'lala' girls will dress like as if they're studying in TS. The boys who always think they're handsome will always act cool (gross). The scholarship holders will only talk among themselves as if they're really the Top Student (so what?). The not so outstanding ones will always sit at one side (alone). Some of the foreigners will have their own cliques and talk in alien languages. Some students attend class as if they're on a Project Runway or America's Next Top Model. Hmm.. I wonder which category I fall on..

Time Table for Semester 1

Monday: Office Application (Lecture) - 8.00am to 11.00am
Economics (Lecture) - 6.30pm to 8.00pm

Tuesday: Algebra & Trigonometry - 8.00am to 9.30am
Economics (Tutorial Group 1) - 9.30am to 11.00am

Wednesday: Algebra & Trigonometry (Group 4) - 11.00am to 12.30pm
Moral Studies - 2.00pm to 5.00pm

Thursday: Algebra & Trigonometry - 9.30am to 11.00am

Friday: Films & Arts Appreciation - 8.00am to 12.30pm
Office Application (Lab 3) - 2.00pm to 3.30pm

*odd odd hours... Some more have to commit 5hours weekly in UCSI to help up some stuffs but it's my pleasure to give back a portion since they've blessed me with the 50% tuition fee waiver..