finally!!! i can blog!
there's a lot to tell but im not gonna blog everything today cause im using the phone to online in my room. i just want to thank God for bringing me to this world and get to know about all kinds of God's creations.. i had an awesome birthday celebration this year. im glad to have friends and family who love me.. make me smile when im sad.. encourage me when i'm disappointed.. help me when i'm in trouble.. it's a blessing from God that it speaks to my heart.

Even though we've changed

and

we're all finding our own place

in the world

we all know that

when the tears fall

or the smile spreads across our face

we'll come to each other

Sometimes being a friend

means

mastering the art of

timing

There is a time for silence

A time to let go

We will not remember the words of our enemies

but the silence of our friends

I haven't seen you in a while

yet I often read your status

I haven't spoke to you recently

but many times I hear your thoughts

You've changed

from good to evil

I want my old friend

* Jarred *

God's plan for our life is not a written script

that we must follow word for word

It's more like a journey with important destinations and appointments

but with a great deal of freedom

as to peace and direction of travel

The future will always have a sense of mystery about it

but we can be certain as we look for God's leading

He will guide and direct us on our journey

Our future only becomes uncertain when we separate ourselves from God

because then we are removing ourselves from His plan,

His guidance and His blessings

But when we come back to Him

He will redeem our lost time

despite all the unknowns and uncertainties ahead

the more we know God

the more certain we will become about our future

Secrets For Effective Christian Leadership

http://leadership.doodig.com/2010/02/12/secrets-for-effective-christian-leadership-2/

It's another day.. Yesterday was Monday, today is Tuesday and tomorrow is Wednesday.. Have to attend Partners and Pushers meeting this evening in church. According to Mr. Alvin Kok, this is the first combine meeting the Partners and Pushers after so many years. No one dares to speak out for their own rights. No one dares to say NO to the partners but now, the Pushers of year 2010 is trying to make a change. Well, this is not the main idea of my blog today.

Alright, the topic that I would love to blog is actually about me and my friends. That includes my best friend and also "ex". Yucks! I hate to call them ex.. I shall name him "the 1st guy" then. Sounds better, I guess.

My best friend, Alyaa Izzati bin Aminuddin is one of my Malay best girlfriend. We're friends for 5years. We met in Form 1. The first conversation was "Hey, hahaha... are you a Japanese?" she asked. "No, I'm a pure Chinese" I replied. "WHAT!? I thought you're a Japanese! Hahahahaha.."She laughed. That's how we get to know each other. She's very loud, her voice sounds like Mickey Mouse and she's quite rough. She acts like a guy, that's why we can get along with each other. Hahaha.. We both were prefects in the afternoon session.

Few years later, she told me a secret. She fell in love with this Malay+Chinese guy. To be honest, he's good looking but not super duper handsome. Good looking as in, he has baby look, tall, fair, slim (a bit muscular), speaks fluent English (I admire most) and etc. The first reaction I gave her was, erm.. ok.. Go ahead. He's quite cute and ya.. handsome? LOL.

She was so into him. We talked about him almost every day back in Form 4. She's my closest Malay girl friend. We share secrets. One day, when we were walking to our Add Maths class, we saw him and his classmates flying kites. What a childish game. Nah.. Our school field is quite big, so it's fun to have such a childhood game. Both of us were talking, laughing and screaming over him while walking to our class (quite embarrassing). I guess that's how he noticed me. Haha.. Actually, I was teasing Alyaa about him. "Hey babe, look who's flying kites" I said while pointing at his direction. We both giggled and started our funny conversations.

Few days later, I received a message from an unknown. I ignored cause I didn't know who's that. Didn't bother to find out also. Well, that's me. (If you wanna talk to me or text me, please address yourself first or else I will ignore. Thanks!) Alright back to the topic. Few minutes later, he sent me another message, he introduced himself this time. So we started to text each other and talk on the phone at times only.

I told Alyaa that I've been texting and talking to this guy for quite some time. I feel sorry and guilty. I apologized and she forgives me. I love her.. 7months later, I said the stupidest thing which is "yes" to him. To be honest, I said yes to him it's because he's good-looking and Alyaa keeps encouraging me to accept this guy. I shouldn't have fall for it but since it happened, I'll take that as a lesson.

Few months later, mom found out that I was dating with this guy through Samantha's blog. She was suspicious on me. She suspected that I was dating. I do mentioned about this guy to my mom. She started to question me a lot. I blog about him at times. I hate to lie and so I told my mom. She was very upset at me. She did not talk to me for few weeks. I was depressed. I felt like running away. I couldn't face my mom. I cried at home. I cried in school while sharing with my classmates. Tears were all over my pillows and bed, even my pyjamas. haha.. I put on my specs just to cover up my eyes when I was in school. The puppy love ended in 3months. I was back to normal. I did not feel sad about losing him cause I wasn't serious.

I was sad because I lied to my mom. I did not respect her as my beloved mom. After all, everything turned up quite well in the end.

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I have lotsa lotsa things to blog and I don't know how to start. I should draw a plan before starting I guess. haha.. nah.. Too troublesome. Well, I just feel like blogging my past. Sometimes it's hard to keep it to myself. I wish to share with my friends but they have their own problems. Certain problems are meant to share with certain people. This blog suppose belongs to only I, me and myself but i'm sure, i'll make it public one day.

6 Career-Killing Facebook Mistakes

An Interesting Article!!!

http://finance.yahoo.com/career-work/article/109267/6-career-killing-facebook-mistakes

Silly me!!!

I did something silly

I scared myself by looking at my own shadow

What a silly thing

Silly me!!

Sing it to me baby!!!

You're so good to me Baby Baby

I wanna lock you up in my closet, when no one's around

I wanna put your hand in my pocket, because you're allowed

I wanna drive you into the corner, and kiss you without a sound

I wanna stay this way forever, I'll say it aloud

Now you're in and you can't get out

You make me so hot

Make me wanna drop

You're so ridiculous

I can barely stop

I can hardly breathe

You make me wanna scream

You're so fabulous

You're so good to me Baby Baby

You're so good to me Baby Baby

I can make you feel all better, just take it in

And I can show you all the places, you've never been

And I can make you say everything, that you never said

And I will let you do anything, again and again

Now you're in and you can't get out

You make me so hot

Make me wanna drop

You're so ridiculous

I can barely stop

I can hardly breathe

You make me wanna scream

You're so fabulous

You're so good to me Baby Baby

You're so good to me Baby Baby

Kiss me gently

Always I know

Hold me love me

Don't ever go

Happiness keeps you Sweet,

Trials keep you Strong,

Sorrow keeps you Human,

Failure keeps you humble and

Success keeps you glowing,

but only Faith & Attitude Keeps you going.